"I surrender"

I'm giving you my heart and all that is within,
I lay it all down, for the sake of you my King.
I'm giving you my dream, I'm laying down my rights.
I'm giving up my pride, for the promise of new life

...And I surrender, all to you, all to you.
...And I surrender, all to you, all to you.

I'm singing you this song, I'm waiting at the cross,
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss
The sake of knowing you, the glory of your hand,
To know the lasting joy in sharing in your pain.
--Vineyard

I used to identify myself as a Christian. I used to feel God working in my life every day. But somewhere, somehow, I lost that connection. I chose not to have God play a central role in my life anymore. It wasn't a conscious decision. It was gradual. Life got hectic, I got busy, I thought I was bigger, could handle more than I could. Sometimes it takes a tragic event or something really significant to draw people back to God. The thing is, I don't want to wait for that to happen. I know that, especially in a world like the one we are living in today, I need my faith more than ever. I don't want to have to wait until something so bad happens. I don't want to go one more day without feeling God's love in my life. The hardest part is knowing where to start. When I listened to this song tonight though, I could only think of one thing to do: surrender. So here I am, surrendering all. I love the lyrics "and all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss". I think this is so powerful. I don't want to be worldly in the way that I am anymore. I want to live for God.